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5:30am
Good morning! Woke up around 5am and sure enough we were going to the beach in the dark! Ambrose was of course ready in 5 seconds as always when he is going to do anything that have to do with the ocean. I on the other hand thought I was gonna die, soooo damn tired because a mosquito keep biting me all night so did not get enough sleep for 5 am adventures.
I guess winter is coming because the sun did not came up and we drove the 30 minutes to Narrabeen in the dark. The sky just lit up a tiny bit as the boys were walking in to the water as you can see from the last picture. My favorite picture of today I have to say.
The reason why I agreed to join them was to start my day by swimming in the ocean. My uncle always tells me how good it is to swim in cold water, especially salt water. Mixing that with staring your day as the sun goes up. Well, everyone who knows me knows by now surely knows I love these things. But there were some crazy waves and not hot at all at 6 in the morning so I skipped it. I tried to meditate, I mean what better location for that, sunrise in your face, sound of the ocean and nobody around. But I got nothing, it all felt like an effort so I just stopped and sat there.
I don’t know why but oceans just don’t give me that …satisfaction it gives to others. I am much more forest and mountains kind of person. It was fun explaining to Ambrose on the drive home that I don’t see peoples obsession with living by the ocean. He is one of those people. -
Pool day
These 2 pictures summarize my entire day. I woke up and went straight to the gym but after around 25 minutes my sisters called and I will always prioritize them over the gym hahah. No seriously, I did my best to talk while I was on the machine but multitasking is not my thing….
As always they made me laugh, think that is the thing I miss most about being with them, we always laugh! Ohh my little Turtles!Well not much has happened here in North Sydney, Gym, swimming laps and then I decided to make a smoothie and lay by the pool and read Eckhart Tolle’s “Power of Now”. The greatest book ever written. I read it before and its worth re-reading for sure.
Its only 8:17pm but we are already starting to get ready for bed. Ambrose and Heath are leaving going to the beach at 5:30am and Im going with them. Starting the day with a swim in the ocean doesn’t sound too bad does it ?! 🙂
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trying from the phone
AGGHHH I am trying really hard to write on here from my phone but it just wont stick! keeps being deleted for some reason. I have a new Iphone5 from our new friend Jérémy but I cannot get the phone to work properly nor can I get an entry to my web page.The other day while we both looked up and saw that our entire apartment turned orange so we hurried up to the rooftop and you can see for yourselves. No filter. That’ss how orange it looked 🙂
Now I’m sitting having a decaf and working on my stuff a bit. I decided last night that I would start my day working out, so that’s what happened. I woke up late, around 8:30 which is late for me. Went to the gym upstairs and worked myself sweaty out on the machines and ended my workout by doing laps in the pool. Now my body feels sore and nice as I like it!
Going home to have something to eat, late late lunch.
Enjoy your Tuesday.
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Narrabeen
Well hello there. This is a few pictures I took in the car when we drove to Narrabeen, around 30 min drive from us. Ambrose had made a playdate with Heath, John, Kappa and luckily Natalia so we all met at the beach for some surf and swim. I did not swim though, the ocean was rough and a storm was about to come so I skipped it and sat at the beach instead. After a couple of hours that was not fun anymore so got up to have a defaf coffee at a really nice restaurant just by the beach. Yep, decaf….that’s me now 🙁 Honestly, I am terrified to have that crazy heart experience again so I am trying to avoid caffeine just to see if I feel better.
The boys came and picked me up at this place after there surf, we had some sushi and headed home because of the storm. But the storm kind of decided to not show up, when we got home it was a beautiful sunny summer day again all of a sudden! Thanks climate change!Anyway, today I had a quick smoothie, my new obsession and then my phone reminded me of Reform Pilates at 10:30 so off I go.
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Staying in
Hi.
I’m just about to go to bed but thought I write something before I go to sleep. I have stayed inside all day, done nothing, and just tried to get back to well, myself. These last few weeks with the heart, all the Dr visits, the emergency it all drained me somehow. I had some kind of attack while walking home from the grocery store. I could feel my body shaking from the inside, I felt anxious and my heart felt like somebody had his hand inside my chest and was playing with it. Weird explanation I know but it freaked me out. Anyway, this feeling did not go away and most of that afternoon I had by heart beating so hard I thought it was coming out of my chest. Luckily Ambrose came home. He was suppose to go to Matt’s bux party but decided to skip it to stay with me.
That’s why I did not write anything yesterday and just rested all day today. Cant think of anything else to do and hopefully it helps.Goodnight and wish everyone a nice weekend.
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Acting
Ohhhh I am so excited for these new acting classes I started. Cant tell you how, well, natural it feels doing this!
Yesterday I had my second class. And we are going to have a small performance in May. Exciting and a tad nervous but wort it, that’s for sure!Afterwards Ambrose picked me up and it was such a nice night so we drove around to, well I dont remember as usual but its a place where you sit on a cliff and have a wiev over the whole city. Not bad, not bad at all 🙂 Ambrose told me its around 15 min walk from our house so though I have that as part of a power walk rout on those days its not too hot.
What else,yep I tried out Pilates at Ambrose gym today.I signed up for a week to see if I like it since its just near our house and Ambrose goes there but…I really really don’t like that place bla!! Will do my week but that’s it.
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Gay Porn for Valentine
Hello 🙂
These last couple of days have been a mix of highs and lows. Dont know how to better explain it to be honest. First we have Valentines Day on Tuesday, now I am not a fan of having ONE day out of the year to hysterically buy teddybears, those roses in ugly plastic cups or a forced candlelight dinner. Well I love all of that but I believe showing your love and appreciation to your partner should be well distributed throughout the whole year. Everyday, each and everyday in someway. Anyway, Ambrose took me to have my favorite food at the moment, Ramen mmmm 🙂 and then to the movies. I choose Lion for us but it was sold out so we picked a movie called Moonlight. without any knowledge what it would be about, just read somewhere quickly that it had received good reviews. So we get into our seats with our laps filled with candy and cinnamon chia pudding ( don’t ask why ) and I take a look around and whisper to Ambrose ” is’t it alot of male couples in this room? did we buy tickets to a gay porn movie?” And sure enough, it was absolute not porn but the movie was about a black guy and his very sad and tough life growing up. And yes there was some man to man sex scenes where his best friend gave him a handjob at the beach but a good movie. I liked it. Me and Ambrose was sitting in the back giggling so people must have though we were idiots laughing at the sex scene but we were laughing because Ambrose brought his girlfriend to a “gayporn” movie on Valentine’s Day!The next day was going from romance and laughter to crying. I had to AGAIN go to the hospital, this time the emergency. I was there for around 3 hours while 3 nurses and a Dr took alot of test to again check if my heart is healthy. I was fine going there but after a while it got too overwhelming so I called Ambrose to come to be with me at the hospital.
All test were fine, and I am so grateful. But I still have the shortness of breath, pressure on my chest, my heart raising and feeling shaky inside my body. I know its not my heart and that is amazing news but what the hell is it!?
We talked about it and perhaps its that my body is feeling anxious because I am just waiting for our Visa to be approved and I am not allowed to work during this time.This morning when I woke up I am calling immigration to see if there is anything we could do to speed up the process but they say we just have to wait patiently. So now I am sending in more evidences. This time its the wedding invitation of Monica & Lachlan in April. So many weddings this year 🙂
Later today I have an workshop at Apple and then this evening, my second acting class!!
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Crashed phone
They were doing studies on what “successful” and happy people did in common. The list is as you see above.
So the time has come, for me to crash my phone. I used to think my phone was immortal :), you cant believe how many times its been falling out of my hand or pocket. And time after time I pick it up and laugh because there has not even been a scratch. This morning I was at the gym and I dropped it as I was working out on one of the machines. I was so surprised when I picked it up and saw that it was smashed into pieces. I had to look over and over to believe it hahaha.
Okey, enough about my phone. Its not the end of the world.
What I came here to say was that I have started this Hour of Power. Its what tony Robbins do and have done for 20 something years. He is an inspiration to me and I honestly respect and trust his work. I will definitely go to one of his VIP workshops but for now I will just copy his morning routine. Here is a summery of what its about:First. Instead of dragging and snoozing, jump out of bed. Directly start moving your body. Go for a run a brisk walk, anything. As you walk, do this breath exercise; 4 quick breaths in, followed by 4 quick breaths out.
Second. Think, see and feel gratitude. Start with yourself, your loved ones, family, what you are blessed with, your health, your bed, whatever. Its important to get yourself in a “state” of complete gratitude so don’t just think it, really feel it fill your body.
Third. Think, see and feel yourself with gratitude for something you really desire As If it is already in your life. For example, if your goal and dream is to be free from an illness, then feel how you would feel as if your body was already healthy.
Remember, the mind cannot decide what feelings are real and what is not.I believe in magic. If you don’t that is alright. This is not about some magic coming in and changing your life. Its hard work, well maybe not hard but consistent work if you will. I say this because some think that I think you do these steps transform you. NO. You transform you.
Whatever you believe and don’t, nobody can argue that shifting focus from a tired, snoozing, complaining, resenting morning to a morning where you jump out of bed, exerciser, focus on your breath and fill your body and mind with gratitude is a bad thing to do.Its safe to say that majority of us are not exercising enough. We are absolutely not focusing on our breath as much as we should, that thing that is synonymous with Life itself. And we are definitely not focusing on what we are blessed with in our lifes, more on whats wrong.
Its not even about having a different opinion or not. I think I can be bold enough to say that only a complete loser can argue against focusing on health, breath and gratitude.
Ohhh, maybe I am a little pissed crashing my phone! Sound so harsh 🙂 🙂 🙂
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