Out of body

Before even starting to type any letters at I could tell this post is going to be all over the place. Guess it is because it is exactly how I feel – all over the place. I feel like I am out of my own body slowly watching my life passing by and I am too exhausted to move.

What is even more bizarre is that at the same time, I feel excited and happy! So excited. Is that normal? To have those two extremes inside your body simultaneously.

Ambrose just came home. Ive been waiting all day to talk to him so this will have to be a short post.

Its strange writing here about life stuff. Sometimes I forget its open, its out there. Once I post there is no where to hide or to deny it. I have to be careful.

Lets talk about shallow, everyday stuff instead. More comfortable right now.

I have been having a cold since Friday afternoon. Whole of this weekend I have been trying to rest. Well I dont know a lot of people here around me in Bondi so even if I was not sick and wanted to mingle there is nobody really to do it with. haha God that sounded super sad! I can just imagine that when my sisters read this they will call me and feel sorry for me.

One time I was at a new job and being shy and embarrassed for the strangest thing I ate my lunch at the ladies room. Yep you read that right. I rather had my lunch at the loo than siting alone in the cafeteria or asking if I could join my colleagues for lunch.

I dont even regret it. I stand my my shyness. Dont really think people understand that I am a shy person. I dont come across as one I think.

OK that’s enough embarrassment for one day. Maybe more stories like this tomorrow if you are lucky!

Bye. xx