Evey time I am in here I start by saying how long ago it was. No point doing that anymore. It is what it is. Sometimes life gets in the way.

And this time its one of those amazing, wonderful and exciting events of life that is happening – we are having a baby !

I dont even know how to begin expressing me happiness. Cannot remember being this grateful ever in my life.

We haven’t decided on a name yet although we have a couple of options in mind.

For the time being we call our baby love Bigottes.

Just want him to know that mummy and daddy love him very very much and can’t wait to meet him.

Before even starting to type any letters at I could tell this post is going to be all over the place. Guess it is because it is exactly how I feel – all over the place. I feel like I am out of my own body slowly watching my life passing by and I am too exhausted to move.

What is even more bizarre is that at the same time, I feel excited and happy! So excited. Is that normal? To have those two extremes inside your body simultaneously.

Ambrose just came home. Ive been waiting all day to talk to him so this will have to be a short post.

Its strange writing here about life stuff. Sometimes I forget its open, its out there. Once I post there is no where to hide or to deny it. I have to be careful.

Lets talk about shallow, everyday stuff instead. More comfortable right now.

I have been having a cold since Friday afternoon. Whole of this weekend I have been trying to rest. Well I dont know a lot of people here around me in Bondi so even if I was not sick and wanted to mingle there is nobody really to do it with. haha God that sounded super sad! I can just imagine that when my sisters read this they will call me and feel sorry for me.

One time I was at a new job and being shy and embarrassed for the strangest thing I ate my lunch at the ladies room. Yep you read that right. I rather had my lunch at the loo than siting alone in the cafeteria or asking if I could join my colleagues for lunch.

I dont even regret it. I stand my my shyness. Dont really think people understand that I am a shy person. I dont come across as one I think.

OK that’s enough embarrassment for one day. Maybe more stories like this tomorrow if you are lucky!

Bye. xx

Last week we were invited to Wall, Caz and Cappa’s house in Balmain for a BBQ and to watch the game. It was Japan vs South Africa. The whole South African group were of course there.

The BBQ was of course South African influenced with biltong which is a cured dried meat. very nice.

The rest of our energy has been going towards getting every document and evidence gathered for VISA 100, stage 2. The other half of the focus is definitely to hang out with our friends and enjoy being back in a “normal”lifestyle which the Eastern suburbs allows.

Its Monday today. Work and Dr appointment this afternoon is on the schedule. Kind of enough since its raining anyway.

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This whole week has been crazy, well in regards to sleep at least. Both Ambrose and I are Jet-lagged. I remember it to last maybe two or three days. Not a whole freaking week!

Yesterday was no different, we woke up at 5 AM and decided to go for breakfast. Ambrose took me to the pancake house in the Rocks. Really nice there early morning before all the tourist swarms the place.

We ordered two pancakes and of course they were huge! Neither of us could finish. After that we drove to my office, went up to the sofas at the top floor for some tea. Nobody was working, still very early which was nice. We co-read a book with all the first pages from Times over the last decade.

I liked that morning.

These last days, well actually weeks have been mentally though. It has been a roller coaster. Now I am more than ever detemend to have some peace and harmony back in my life. Joy above all. Peace of mind above all. Nothing else is important.

I cant nor do I want to go into details. I am fully aware that Life is like this – a roller coaster. Sometimes its exzilerating, other times just though. I am fine with that. But it is also a choice, and my focus, my intention is now only on peace.

Cool, Calm & Collected hahaha.

Otehr than the rollercoaster we have been busy looking for a new home in Sydney. We have eaten out and had take-away meals more than ever before. And yesterday I had my friend Kimberly over for breakfast at Terrigal, shopping and general hangout. Btw, God I really dont like shopping!

Since it has been raining and the Coast where I live is mostly fun outdoors we decided to drive to the city to see Alladin. But when we got there there were only free seats right at the bottom of the cinema. We decided to save our necks and had an amazing long dinner instead. I hardly get to spend time with girlfriends nowadays so I forgot how diffrent it feels to have conversations with a girl. haha. So sad, I need to mix it up more in my life.

I just realised I was adding in my journaling app but not updating anything here. May it is because here is an open forum and the app is private. There is something I like to keep private. At least for a while but ridicilus not to write here – I mean, I choose to have this platform so why not use it. I know I will appriciate it in the long run. Anyway!

We spend last saturday and also yesterday which was Monday to look for a new home. Bondi beach and Darlinghurst were our two areas. Long story short, we got the two bedroom we originally wanted. But we decided to decline and look at a one bedroom home. However, this was not what we wanted as our home. Instead we checked into a hotel, had an amazing dinner and spend the rest of the night eating candy in bed and watching TV at our hotel.
We dont own a TV so this was a treat for us haha.

We both slept really poorly so I decided to get up early and start my day at a bakery instead. I was super tired but there was no point just lying in the hotel. Love starting my mornings like that.

Cannot wait until we have our additional home in an area which allow us to begin our mornings like today.

Oh my, it really has been a long time ago I was in here. I have missed it. Journal, I have missed YOU.

I know I always say i will do better. This time I wont make any emphjy promises, I will just write whenever I feel like there is something to write about. Whenever I feel like I need to write things “off my chest”. As usual I am not sure that was correct English, but whatever..

The next couple of posts from me will most likely be from our resent travels – New Zealand! We all went there for my sister in law’s wedding. After the wedding we had an almsost 2 week holiday – in a camperwan !!

Crazy time haha.

In the meantime I leave with this picture from our return flight. I will explain the picture later on. This will forever be one of my favourite/memorable pictures ever taken.

Have a good rest of Thursday.

I have been trying to cook more food at home. There is something about home cooked food. charming, cozy and yummy.
This is what our dinner from last night. Home cooked chicken soup. Maybe it doesn’t look like the tastiest food but I love food like this.

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But then we have all the variety of food you can get when eating at restaurants. I have to say that Australia, well they really deliver when it comes to fantastic restaurants serving great food.
There is not many times during my almost 6 years in Australia that I have been disappointment when it comes to eating out.

Last Sunday, after I woke up early from Anastasia’s crazy hens party ,
Ambrose and I drove back to Terrigal for some breakfast. Food was all I could think about after that Saturday. We found a new restaurant called Island Time Espresso Bar .

Look at my poke’ bowel! They had a variety of poke’ bowls, I choose one with tuna. Maybe not the most common breakfast food but after a short walk and a almond latte it was time for this for sure! Ambrose had the slow coooked porc toast with poached egg and hollandaise sauce.

After all the food we walked around for a bit. Terrigal is great, if you haven’t been I do recommend visiting. The place is filled with a beautiful beach, good food, and an all around charming atmosphere. I love their narrow alleys filled with flowers!