The Big Move. should we, should we not. Do we even have a choice. My thoughts at the moment. I’m sitting in Bondi Beach looking for tickets to Sweden. The big move decision is weather or not our mini family moves to cold Sweden for at least 3 months.

The decision would not be so “big” if we did not have to deal with Covid, all its regulations and of course a little baby. The government in Australia has granted us to fly which is a huge deal at the moment so yes, I am grateful. But we need to be away for minimum 3 months. Ambrose works said he can take leave but not allowing him to work from Sweden. This is due to security for his work.

The cost of flights are crazy high at the moment. We have more or less no power over when we are allowed back into Australia. The risk of getting Covid itself during travel and being in Europe where its quite bad at the moment. Packing our whole house and put into some storage. Living with my family and not really having our own space. But also being with my loved ones on a day to day basis. Mathéo getting to know and feel the love and connection of family. Here I feel more lonely and in Sweden I can just pick and choose from people I want to spend time with. Getting help so my arms get a chance to heal.

These are the thoughts in my head at the moment. So many negative things but at the same time thought of having my family and friends walking distance away puts a big smile on my face. Thought of our son playing with grandma fills my heart. And imagining Ambrose playing with Mathéo in the snow for the first time makes me just plain happy.

I have been so bad at making decisions. It takes me forever. I dont want that anymore. I mean, whatever we decide is going to be a good one anyway.

I think we already made the choice to leave. Both Ambrose and I thrive from new shifts in life. If its the same for a long period of time we both kind of seek a fresh new thing. Think that is why we have moved around so much. I get it, its not for everyone but it works for us. Many have a job, get married, have their home and a big saving. And that is really good, I love all of that too. But life has moved Ambrose and I to new places more than the average person I guess. Its not always been easy. But it has always been fun.

Oh, and my not so big decision is if I should go back to being blond once I am back in Sweden 🙂

These pictures makes me miss the blond hair alot!

My baby sister got married last Thursday! In Barcelona so we could not be there because of Covid. But we dialed in, the picture below is us with the bride and groom as they drove back to the mini celebration party they had.

Cant wait for the big wedding, where we can all be together. Where we can actually give them a hug. Miss those small things. They become so big when you cant have them.

Other than the wedding we had a wonderful week, just been doing small little things like concentrating on getting Mathéo’s sorted. Ambrose has been off this whole week which made a huge difference!

We also have been catching up with family. This Saturday was auntie Anastasia & uncle Leonard’s Birthday. Mathéo thought it was his party.

When we got back home Ambrose suggested throwing Mathéo a party at our pool for his 6 months old birthday. We missed baby shower and all those stuff so really looking forward to this one!

More beach days. And again, Bronte beach. The weather has been a bit all over the place. Rain, sun, storm, windy, and overall super humid as you can see in my hair. I look like a lion slash Tina Turner most days.

As I mentioned a couple of days ago. Ambrose has been obsessed by Acai bowls, and he has dragged me into this obsession. We eat one almost everyday now. The other day both of us bite into something hard and it was these pieces of metal. It turned out the Café’s blender broke and pieces of meal got into our Acai bowls. Which reminds me, need to book a check at our dentist.

I guess the big news of the week has to be that we got an exemption. Australia is in lock-down, we cannot leave nor enter Australia due to Covid19. But after letters from a Dr, physio and a psychologist the Australian Government finally approved our request. But we have to be gone for minimum 3 months. AHHHH!!

Ok, dont want to get into all that right now. I’m sitting at a beautiful place, going to close my computes and just enjoy the calm.

Puss & Kram

Here in our house everything is about sleep. Or the lack of it hahah. And, how the F we can fix it!?

Ambrose has taken a week of work so we can start over with getting Mathéo into a good sleep pattern. I know some call it sleep training but I dont like that at all. He is a baby, a human being and not a solder in some movie.

Anyway, each to their own.

We want to do this because he has been teething, then got a rash, then 4 month sleep regression, then he develops and learns new thins so that messes with his sleep. and on and on we go. Zzzzzzz. So simply put, we need to teach him once again to connect his sleep-cycles. Right now he depends on us to settle him by rocking him to sleep. But both Ambrose and I are confident. Mathéo has always been a good sleeper so he knows what to do. This handsome, lovely baby of ours. I love him beyond!

Jumping to another story just like that – last night we all got invited to our friend Nour and Adam. It was really fun. They made a Lebanese BBQ feast and I had my fist alcohol since I got pregnant. Half a glass of Shiraz. And I think it got me hahaha. I felt drunk just after 2 sips. Not surprised thought.

W got home just before midnight I think which was ineradicable. Nowadays I am used to go to bed by 7pm!

Other than that we have spent time at the beach. Visiting our other friends who are mum´s, dads and uncles. And we had a whole lot of Acai bowls. Madre Mia! Ambrose got us hooked on this. Which it was a tiny bit healthier but whatever. It is what it is.

Some pictures of our days

At night we have as a routine that Ambrose put Mathéo to bed. Mainly because he can smell my milk and that makes it so much difficult to get him asleep.

That is at 7pm. After I give Mathéo his night feed Ambrose takes him and I do my own little routine. I lit some candles, I have always loved candles though. And then I make myself a chai tea with almond milk. I usually dont have much appetite for “real” food so this is my dinner. I always laugh because it looks so posh and romantic. It is not. hahaha. I slice a pear, smear blue cheese on, prosciutto and some almonds on top. So simple but so tasty!

And then I look at an episode of The Big Bang Theory. I love Sheldon, not so much the rest.

Then I go to bed. We both go to bed early because Mathéo is going through his 4 months sleep thing AND he is just getting his first tooth! My little love, so much going on in his life right now.

Looking forward to this weekend because we are going on our first family trip. We are visiting friends in Mudgee. And on Saturday the plan is to go to Dubbo Zoo. Cant wait to show Mathéo all the animals.

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Here are the last couple of days. I am, like most new moms spending my days with my little baby boy. He is getting his first tooth at the moment so a bit unsettled and in pain. But the worst part is over. Still alot of cuddles and I dont mind one bit to be honest.

Also, as I wrote earlier I have been made redundant from my job. I went online to join our divisional meeting, just to say goodbye. I also went on a TEAMS meeting with my immediate team. Both felt really good. Then I received this beautiful bouquet of flowers and it felt really as a ending. Of course its a bit sad but mostly it felt more like a fresh start. I love that feeling of new beginnings. I guess I have had alot of times in my life when I have had to start over so I guess I am used to it. Think its necessary. I am not saying it has always been easy not by choice. But I have learnt that sometimes life forces you to get out of your comfort zone. And in my case it has ALWAYS been to my benefit.

Here are pictures from the last couple of days.

Today my baby boy turns 4 months!

It is so crazy, I dont know if every parent feels the same but both Ambrose and I say it feels like a second and like forever at the same time.

Happy Birthday to the best person I know – My Mathéo <3
I dont even know life without you in it, to me, you are life.

When you are older and can read this, I want you to know a little about how you were at this stage in your life.

You smile and giggle alot. You are such a calm and happy baby. Dad and I both love when you wake up because once you do your big stretch and you realize we are there you give us the biggest smile. It melts our hearts every damn time.

Your favorite thing in the world are to be high up and having the view of everything and everyone.

You can stare out of the window of the cars for hours.

You know how to turn over so tummy time is getting hard! But you love the aquarium dad got you.

Whenever we can we call grandma in Europe. You get excited to see her every time. Cant wait until we can fly to see your other half of the family.

You are a cool, calm and collected baby hahah. Its not often we hear you cry. You are so lovely, you smell like a dream and we just cant get enough of you.

You are more interested in people than in your toys. You love plants and looking up at the tree branches from your pram.

We just got your Australian passport, cant wait to explore the world with you!

We cannot imagine life without you. Thank you for being our son.

The last couple of days in pictures.

We have spent some time in Balmain, both times for breakfast in the sun. One time was to say farewell to our friends Kimberley and Jackson. They are having a baby girl and decided to move back home to Brisbane to have the baby. Cant wait for the boarders to open so we can go and visit them. And most of all, so we can fly back to Europe and show our Love Mathéo to the family!

Anyway, Ambrose and I tried our first Acai bowl. Yes I know we are extremely behind but it is what it is now. Its extra strange we haven’t tried that for breakfast especially since we live in Bondi.

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Well, the title says it all. Maybe I should start writing here on a weekly basis. We see how we go.

So what has happened since last time? I have becom a mother to a beautiful baby. A boy. His name is Mathéo and he is unbelievably amazing. I have thought about moving back to Europe. I have been on TV with Mathéo and Ambi. I have been made redundant because of Covid. I have moved house.

So a little bit of everything. Most of it good. Having my son, best thing I have ever done!

Thought I share some pictures from the last couple of months.

Enjoy and I see you when I see you. xx