Funny how feelings work isn’t it…

I was just reading something and it made me think about feelings. Our true feelings, these constant fluctuating emotions determining our day, our world and lives. I mean it constantly feels like whenever you think you got it right, that everything is cool something comes, event, people, thought… and it stir things up and it feels like you are up swirling around these crazy emotions once again! Don´t get me wrong sometimes its wonderful event, people, thought. But it still amaze me how little it takes to change your mood sometimes. And if its one talent I would like to posses, is the art of non-resistance, the ability of continuous inner peace and the art of surrender.

Just imagine, to learn to Let Go, Let Life ( suppose to be Let Go, Let God. But I’m not religious, and for me the meaning of God is life itself)

I know, trust, belief in all these teachings from great people such as Rumi, Eckhart Tolle and so on. And I sometimes find it extremely frustrating that I over and over fail to put their teachings into practice in my everyday life.
Its so simple yet the hardest thing somehow….

This morning I woke up around 5:30am to go with Ambrose to North Sydney. I had received a text message from Jasmin where she said something about that I have such character and potential and that I should give it a try and move with her to LA and maybe to go to drama school, go on audition etc. I used to go to drama classes growing up, and as long as I can remember I wanted to work in movies and theater. That´s why my whole family is always on my to give it a shot and that if I don’t at least try I will always regret it…..
And this is the whole point with this post. Everything is great. I’m finally in Australia, we just came back from this amazing vacation, had the best long weekend. Just being here a few weeks and Ambrose has taken me around to the most amazing places. And suddenly I wake up feeling unease about the uncertain future. Fear about once again moving to a new country, our partner Visa, finding a job here in Australia, all the paper work I still have to organize back in Sweden. What the Dr say about my neck injury. Planing us moving back to Europe. Buying a house. And on top of that, that simple text message this morning makes me now think about all choices. How do we ever know if we make the right one?

I hope everyone has a really really good day. And if you are in North Sydney, I can recommend The Treehouse Hotel on 60 Miller st. Such great atmosphere.

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