Boredom
The most boring title – but that is exactly whats been going on lately. Whats interesting though is the fact that the irritation and sadness has left me. All that overthinking has been diminished to a great extent. All those thoughts, worries and irritations were beyond exhausting. I was constantly tired because its draining. I guess without all that shit the brain now says ´OK, I am bored. Lets go. What are we going to do with our-self?´hahaha.
Oh God, its never ending is it not!?
Some say if you are bored, you are boring. Well, maybe I am but I just dont give a F right now. It is as it is. And it is definitely better than being sad.
I guess I am so used to have alot of fun, energetic and spontaneous people around me. For most of my life that was the case. It feels strange to be without that – its by choise, I know, I am the one who decide to move across the world. And in many many ways this is a far better country BUT the older I get I strongly feel I dont want to miss the everyday stuff with these people below…
It does not matter right now anyway. It might sound corny but If there is anything I learned from my somewhat gypsy life is that it is best to not struggle and just go with the fucking flow. Apologies for the language but it sucks even if it is the truth.
Other everyday gossip is that Mathéo got 3 day a week at his daycare. He only had Fridays which is not enough. I am meeting with my old Director for a lunch. I am looking for a new job. I also want to start training. It is like my therapist said, the evidence and is undeniable, exercise is so good for our mental health. No excuses.
Trusting placing in (and keeping) a couple of routines into my everyday life will make it all a lot better.
Ok this was maybe not the most fun post from me but it is how it is at the moment.
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