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The Big Move decision mixed with not so big decisions

The Big Move. should we, should we not. Do we even have a choice. My thoughts at the moment. I’m sitting in Bondi Beach looking for tickets to Sweden. The big move decision is weather or not our mini family moves to cold Sweden for at least 3 months.

The decision would not be so “big” if we did not have to deal with Covid, all its regulations and of course a little baby. The government in Australia has granted us to fly which is a huge deal at the moment so yes, I am grateful. But we need to be away for minimum 3 months. Ambrose works said he can take leave but not allowing him to work from Sweden. This is due to security for his work.

The cost of flights are crazy high at the moment. We have more or less no power over when we are allowed back into Australia. The risk of getting Covid itself during travel and being in Europe where its quite bad at the moment. Packing our whole house and put into some storage. Living with my family and not really having our own space. But also being with my loved ones on a day to day basis. Mathéo getting to know and feel the love and connection of family. Here I feel more lonely and in Sweden I can just pick and choose from people I want to spend time with. Getting help so my arms get a chance to heal.

These are the thoughts in my head at the moment. So many negative things but at the same time thought of having my family and friends walking distance away puts a big smile on my face. Thought of our son playing with grandma fills my heart. And imagining Ambrose playing with Mathéo in the snow for the first time makes me just plain happy.

I have been so bad at making decisions. It takes me forever. I dont want that anymore. I mean, whatever we decide is going to be a good one anyway.

I think we already made the choice to leave. Both Ambrose and I thrive from new shifts in life. If its the same for a long period of time we both kind of seek a fresh new thing. Think that is why we have moved around so much. I get it, its not for everyone but it works for us. Many have a job, get married, have their home and a big saving. And that is really good, I love all of that too. But life has moved Ambrose and I to new places more than the average person I guess. Its not always been easy. But it has always been fun.

Oh, and my not so big decision is if I should go back to being blond once I am back in Sweden 🙂

These pictures makes me miss the blond hair alot!

Our old apartment in North Sydney! Such nice place!
I look so mad 🙁
Hot days by the pool with my little One
I love you more than anything bubba! Forever.

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