Gay Porn for Valentine

Hello 🙂
These last couple of days have been a mix of highs and lows. Dont know how to better explain it to be honest. First we have Valentines Day on Tuesday, now I am not a fan of having ONE day out of the year to hysterically buy teddybears, those roses in ugly plastic cups or a forced candlelight dinner. Well I love all of that but I believe showing your love and appreciation to your partner should be well distributed throughout the whole year. Everyday, each and everyday in someway. Anyway, Ambrose took me to have my favorite food at the moment, Ramen mmmm 🙂 and then to the movies. I choose Lion for us but it was sold out so we picked a movie called Moonlight. without any knowledge what it would be about, just read somewhere quickly that it had received good reviews. So we get into our seats with our laps filled with candy and cinnamon chia pudding ( don’t ask why ) and I take a look around and whisper to Ambrose ” is’t it alot of male couples in this room? did we buy tickets to a gay porn movie?” And sure enough, it was absolute not porn but the movie was about a black guy and his very sad and tough life growing up. And yes there was some man to man sex scenes where his best friend gave him a handjob at the beach but a good movie. I liked it. Me and Ambrose was sitting in the back giggling so people must have though we were idiots laughing at the sex scene but we were laughing because Ambrose brought his girlfriend to a “gayporn” movie on Valentine’s Day!

The next day was going from romance and laughter to crying. I had to AGAIN go to the hospital, this time the emergency. I was there for around 3 hours while 3 nurses and a Dr took alot of test to again check if my heart is healthy. I was fine going there but after a while it got too overwhelming so I called Ambrose to come to be with me at the hospital.
All test were fine, and I am so grateful. But I still have the shortness of breath, pressure on my chest, my heart raising and feeling shaky inside my body. I know its not my heart and that is amazing news but what the hell is it!?
We talked about it and perhaps its that my body is feeling anxious because I am just waiting for our Visa to be approved and I am not allowed to work during this time.

This morning when I woke up I am calling immigration to see if there is anything we could do to speed up the process but they say we just have to wait patiently. So now I am sending in more evidences. This time its the wedding invitation of Monica & Lachlan in April. So many weddings this year 🙂

Later today I have an workshop at Apple and then this evening, my second acting class!!
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